State of Emotion
This is for anyone who lost themselves..I understand your pain.. You took my life when you left me to second guess myself. I continuously cried to ease the pain that you caused. I thought about which drugs to take and which ways to go just to ease the pain you selfishly did to me. You made me feel love was finally mine and then took it back just to see me drop. You killed me. You used my pain to build you up and tear me down like I was being taught a lesson. The options were to have no more fucks to give and after all this pain I will never find love or trust anyone again. You killed me I waited every day for you to come home and have your hugs, kisses and affection. To be held by you and for you to tell me you love me to my face. But you killed me. You took my smile and gave me tears. You took my soul leaving me lifeless as you lived your life. Over and over again today you killed me. But I stood my ground and woke up from the nightmare of letting myself go and free of the pain